At the beginning of February 2019, I finally took the plunge and decided, along with two friends to start the open mediumship development circle at the Arthur Findlay College at Stansted Hall.
I’ve written about the college before in previous blog posts, but to summarise, the college is purely for the study of psychic & mediumship development and attracts students from all over the world, including some of the most famous historic mediums to date.
Since 2015, I have attended local circles, the last one being a closed home circle. A home circle is a fantastic place to start learning your craft (so to speak!), a safe environment where you feel comfortable and it doesn’t matter if you make mistakes because it is understood that it’s a learning environment.
There is a lot I could talk about regarding the development of mediumship (mediumship being the ability to communicate with spirits), however for the point of this blog I will highlight the biggest and most challenging aspect of it for most mediums: the ability to differentiate between what you are thinking in your own conscious mind versus what spirit is sending you to translate to your sitter. Translate literally means to understand the images, feelings and words you are receiving during the communication.
Trusting in what you are getting from the spirit is pretty much the key to it all really, doubt is not your friend during your learning process.
When we left the home circle at the beginning of the year, what we were most afraid of is getting stuff wrong. To me, personally, it’s the responsibility that mediumship holds that weighs heavily on my shoulders. Not only because there are thousands of fraudsters out there who cold read people, not only because there are many highly sceptical individuals who would go out of their way to try and have you exposed for being one of those fraudsters (this is a job for some people, which is fantastic work to find the scammers but if you are a legitimate human being who can talk to dead people, they are also out to get you too), the biggest responsibility for me is that you are talking to someone who is grieving. If I get the message wrong, or not clear enough, or just too “general” then I am doing that person a disservice. If there is one thing I can’t stomach and that is doing a bad job of something I am supposed to be doing well. I have always said that if it turns out that I am an average medium with mediocre evidence, then that’s where it stays, I progress no longer. I’m only putting this effort in to develop if it means that I can give a sitter some of the best evidence they will ever receive from a medium. That is not an egotistical statement. It’s my ethical and moral standpoint on the subject. After over 3 years of development, I’m still at the early stages with this. Time hasn’t unfolded yet in terms of reaching the level I seek. But there will be a cut off period for me, I will know if and when I have reached it. (I would like to mention at this point that Psychic tarot readings are not the same as mediumship readings. I can read Psychic very well, which is what I do during tarot readings. I’ve also given some amazingly accurate mediumship evidence, but this is sporadic, but it’s those snippets of information that keep me going on my journey).
So all that said, earlier in 2019 it was our time to graduate from mediumship primary school and to move on to a big school, or Hogwarts as I like to call it! (After showing my little girl photographs of the gothic exterior of the college, she is pretty convinced I fly off on a broomstick every Thursday night to class!).
On the first night of class, we were all so nervous. I had seen photos of the college but had no idea how spectacular it looked in real life, in stunning grounds, huge iron doors, I felt like we were stepping back in time when we arrived.
My nerves notched up a level when I saw the circle was more like an oblong, there were loads of people attending, unlike the small intimate circles we were used too.
The lady who was taking this particular class was pretty incredible. What I mean by that is, she had an aura of energy around her that I was instantly attracted too, a kindness and healing feeling, she had an amazing way of telling you things that allowed you to understand the exact point she was trying to make. For example, on this class she wanted us to “feel” our way into connecting to the person sitting in front of us and then to allow the spirit to connect to that feeling, creating the link so we could start to deliver the evidence that the spirit was with us.
I was paired off with a lovely older gentleman, who told me he had been coming to circle for a couple of years. I think he could tell I was nervous and offered to go first, thank goodness! He connected to my grandad and gave me some lovely evidence, nothing mind-blowing (but who is judging?!) but it was a nice reading and I thanked him.
Now it was my turn. I remembered what the tutor had said about feeling the energy. With my mediumship, I find the hardest part is establishing the link. If I have a strong spirit who on Earth would have had big energy, that makes life a lot easier, but most people are not like that, so you really do have to try hard to connect on the link.
I looked at the chap sitting opposite me. What did I feel when I looked at him? Music notes, that’s what I felt, soft music all around him. He felt like music.
“I feel music all around you…” as soon as the words came out of my mouth I saw a little (quite short in fact) lady in my mind’s eye. She had a grandmotherly feel but also she would have mothered this man as he grew up. This lady was a force to be reckoned with, she may have been small but she was the head of the family for sure! The music connection was also to her, I could see scores and films and an orchestra. I feed this back and the man smiled. He told me that his grandmother had brought him up like a mother. She was small in stature but was the matriarch of the family. She was in a choir and would sing in different musical shows. There was some other personal stuff I fed back to him and all in all he was really chuffed with his reading.
All three of us had a fantastic night and realised with sincere thanks and gratitude that our old circle teacher had helped us so much over the last couple of years. Our evidence was very good, not just generic “grandad liked a drink down the pub” stuff, but some real facts about the people who had passed on.
It was my second night, the following week, at Hogwarts that really got my juices flowing! We had a fabulous speaker who was talking about being in the Power. What does this mean? I never really knew until that night. Basically, its when we sit and connect to our higher self, a deep feeling of meditation and sitting with ourselves, our guides, our spirit team, its where we connect back to the source of our living energy force.
Our tutor wanted us to connect to the sitter, on a soul level. This is deeper than reading someone psychically. If you read someone psychically, you can feel what they did that day (seriously you wouldn’t believe how many women are thinking about shoes!), or you pick up on some feelings like an argument may have happened, they feel red/fiery or sad and upset. The soul connection is different, this is about the person’s life journey, their hopes, fears, dreams…the core of who they are. You need permission to read someone’s soul.
I sat in front of a lovely lady called Helen, who proceeded, after my permission, to read my soul journey. I can hand down say it was one of the most accurate readings I have ever had. Helen was phenomenal. She knew I used my hands to heal, she could feel my ambitions and my dreams, that is truly unique to me.
When it was my turn I took a deep breath and trusted that I could do this. Once I was into Helen’s energy I just accepted the visions that came and allowed them to tell a story. I felt that Helen was also a healer but in a different sense, hers was mental, she healed through her knowledge and also through words, people listened to her and her advice. I also said some other personal things. After Helen told me that she is a counsellor/therapist, so talks to heal people and that the personal stuff I mentioned was so accurate, she was really pleased with what I picked up.
At this point, I was buzzing! It was time to sit in the circle again and our tutor wanted us to all meditate and get into the power, observing who we felt around us whilst we did it. She turned on the music and we all closed our eyes. We must have sat there for ten minutes or so when I finally started to relax, I felt my guide, Blue, standing behind me. Then I saw him looking at a vast landscape, with green mountains and a stunning deep blue sea. He sat down, literally on my lap so I could feel that my hands were no longer on my jeans, they were now on his blue robes. Blue has his namesake because of his blue eyes, his blue robe and the blue light that I have now started to see every so often, it flashes past my eyes or I can see it when I close my eyes. I don’t talk about this blue energy to anyone.
When it was time to come back to the room, our tutor went around each individual person to talk about their experience. To my utter amazement, she could identify who the person had with them during their own very personal meditation experience. When it was my turn, she told me I had a man standing behind me. “Yes, that’s my guide, he sat on top of me!” I said as the others laughed.
The tutor nodded then said “Yes, I saw him too, and his blue light energy. Blue all around you. It will be interesting to see where that blue energy is going to take you, Tanya”………..
Until next time,